I ALMOST COMMITTED SUICIDE

When asked my most remarkable year so far, I wouldn't think twice before screaming "2015!" I had just come out of a broken home with all it's strain on my emotions. At a point, I realised my mental health was on life support. Tears became top on my menu and I felt my heart tearing apart. Living in a place different from the home I was used to and having to change my last name twice, (when I never marry o) was both strange and discomforting. I wanted a normal family, and to live a normal life with parents and siblings together in the picture. But let's just say I wasn't made for such. I believe only I can understand the sleepless nights and tear-stained pillow cases. My creative antenna was even more receptive, as I wrote several poems and stories to depict the situation. I remember clearly, the poem "Broken Childhood". Till date, I cry whenever I read it. Feelings of not being wanted partied in my heart and suicidal thoughts flooded effortlessly...

Six years down the line, I would even subject my enemy to corporal punishment for having suicidal thoughts. I discovered myself in Christ and since then, my joy has known no bounds. It doesn't mean that most times I don't have depressing thoughts about life, my future and everything else, I mean, we're doing life here. But there is hope now.

It's been glorious, lots of achievements, to the glory of God, and so much more to live for now. Today I celebrate my 22nd birthday with nothing but joy all over. I'm grateful to God for the "fire", because I have come out blossoming. To my wonderful maternal family, I owe you the world! Thank you for the immense love. To my friends that have stood by me all these years, my love for you knows no bounds. Thank you!

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Kindly say a word of prayer for me today. That will be the best gift. I love you.